O-Week

hello :)

I've started Uni, feels great. almost 18 now eh, time flies! there are times when I feel sick of growing up, but well, what can we do except keep doing what I've been doing. Uni, social life, family.. Just keep myself busy and growing up wouldn't be much of a hassle. As long as I keep everybody happy, family esp, then I'm happy. :)

so... O-week huh. interesting.. so many new faces. packed tram.. couldn't breathe inside yknow, like this morning, I couldn't even reach my phone in my bag. literally couldn't move. I find this Orientation good, cos when are you getting this lots of chances anymore dude, to know people. the thing is people wanna know you too, and so it builds up the atmosphere if you get what I mean. I honestly love it, but it's tiring. I was very sleepy and not feeling v well.. haha but it's alright. I know more people, both locals and internationals.. it's cool.

another reason why O-week and Uni both are fun, is that it connects you more to the world I guess? keeps reminding me that I'm not stuck in the middle of nowhere and I think the word is 'more global'. If you imagine the world and the people in it, how small we are. I'd be like a tiny little little spot from trillions of people.. and I don't wanna be that small, I want the connection. I wanna know a lot of people and not stuck in a bubble of my own petite world. yknow you have everybody else out there. it's not just you, it's about everybody..

yeah I guess that's all.

cao~

dP

long time ago, I wrote this the night after ...

And so I came

I know the risk of seeing you again

but I still came anyway,

despite my mind was saying not to.

And so we chat

Although I tried to be as normal,

I know I showed my awkwardness

When I saw you talking, facing me

(peep, censored - too cheesy)

You know, other friends know you better

I don't, I'd like to

I really wanna know you, wanna be

someone who perhaps know you better than anyone else

Someone you can confide to

Some friend

That's enough, if you didn't know

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hello brothers and sisters. im telling ya God let me take the chance and i have pursued my holiday with peace so far. and i have taken the chance, just that i havent started working on it.

well, i guess my life back home is getting interesting each day. good for me. my family is the best. im here right now, typing, thinking, breathing fresh air and smiling cos of them (a bit cheesy but its a fact!). ok just bear with me a sec, im getting to my point. family is everything to me, like i need anybody else nomore. they're givin me everything i need, and craving for somebody else seems to have no point logically. friends are friends, well some friends are just better to me than others in some ways. close friends are always good and i appreciate them so much. i love the laughs that we always have and the fact that we'll share the same future. makes me scare it no more.

the hard thing about friends is there's always someone in particular who is being envied more by me. the feeling is as complicated as it sounds in my previous sentence. okay this is as far as i'd go for this particular person.

hmm what other stuff.. im learning german, still in the method of love it to learn it tho. oh yeah ive got my visa, and im going back more or less in two weeks time.. yea yea the tears, its certainly gonna be on my cheeks. just something that i always have to go thru. but im alright w that.

okay today's gonna be a long day, hope everythings fine. cao~

dP

oh shoot

hey. ive been homesick but now im 'healed' (if thats even the word). im back to indo. yay. so what now, lets see.

our results will be coming out on the 14th of dec. this is damn damn scary. like my fate. like our fate. one year has passed and dont tell me that it's so fast, i heard it too much. what i can do now is only hope that my hardwork pays off yknow, yea we can't do anything else anymore. we have done so much - weve slacked, weve cramped and weve studied hard. quite hard, i guess. and it better pays off srsly. im rly worried right now, like i cant even explain, but i think everyone knows the feeling. it sucks.

well lemme describe how it sucks. it really makes you to wait for the day to finally see whether youre good enough, despite either ways you know you deserve what you get. but theres also part of you that makes you dont want that day to come by that fast, cos if the result isnt as what you expected your holiday will suck, lemme tell you. suck alot. like even holiday doesnt even feel like one. you'll think that "okay lemme get myself a knife or a rope" ha-ha well ok, not that bad if you have your family around to cheer you up.

i htae tihs felenig!! arhggg im turning mad.... madness is what i am right now.

in conclusion, i want that day to come fast! whether im in or out of melb uni, just gimme the result and let me pursue my holiday in warmth and peace. thank you.

dP

it's amazing how u don't care...

okayy whatev, tmoro's a new day

let's expect new things, new stuff

im so tired todayy~

..random

dP

never the same again i guess

but everytime we say goodbye

i planned to stare longer

but i always turn around and avoid your eyes...

okayy this is nothing, i got bored and i started typing...

you know,

everyday just wondering, don't you see I'm tired

is it just me or you've acted differently

I think we talked too much; we need a break?

do we? should we?

you didn't reply

so I thought

have you been sleeping?

cos I've been looking

all over, waiting, all over, sighing

but just couldn't find -

don't know what I was searching for

tell me, tell me

do I just need to turn my back

pretending it isn't a fact?

about calling you, I think twice

about texting you, I think too much

about every little thing you do, they make me smile

when we say goodbye, I'm always waiting for that face

even a word doesn't need to be said

again, i don't wanna make another mistake

slap me and keep me awake

don't let me have that beautiful dream

cos I don't wanna hurt anyone, not my friend

but so I thought

have you been sleeping?

cos I've been looking

all over, waiting, all over, sighing

but just couldn't find -

don't know what I was searching for

tell me, tell me

do I just need to turn my back

pretending it isn't a fact?

y'know what,

whatever.

dP